I have been sick sick sick recently, vertigo, headaches, nausea, you name it. Finally got some new medication and feeling a little better. While I was sick, I had a lot of time to feel sorry for myself. Oh yes, whoa is me, no one is here to take care of me, me, me, me....the world should revolve around me when I'm sick ;), BUT, besides the joys of self loathing, I also had a lot of time to express myself through music. I finally picked up one of the 5 guitars I have just hanging around the house and decided to start strumming. Before I knew it, I had strummed my first song, taught myself to play a song that I have been listening to, "Human" by Civil Twilight, and learned chords C, D, and E. I have written a ton of lyrics to music I hear in my head, but this is my first, written and composed song. It probably belongs on the soundtrack to a "Twilight" movie, but still, I wrote it and it really helped my "whoa is me" attitude. And when I drove to pick my son up from school I went in peace with absolutely NO road rage! Now that is a first.
Anyway, what I realized was, God gives me so many opportunities to be kind to others and kind to myself and I normally, especially while driving, choose to turn the other cheek, but this day I chose to take him up on his offer and let the lady to the right of me cut in front of me so she could make the left turn on vineyard, I was kind to myself by writing a song so that my heart could feel lighter and I could let my God given talent not be muffled by my....hmmm, by me. I guess this is all part of my journey to discovering the old and new Amber. I'd rather not turn the other cheek. :)
Next on my agenda, Meals on Wheels (if that lady ever calls me back), Making Strides Against Breast Cancer with a woman who should have her own advice column, Mernette Cardejon, and Tango lessons at the Honolulu Club. Stay tuned!
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